Sonetines I feel like I never know where i fit in with my friends. Sometimes I feel as if we’re not friends at all. Like why do i always have to initiate hanging out? I know that sometimes i’m insecure. Sometimes that insecurity makes me read situations wrong. But, feeling left out, and seeing said friends making time to hang out with others and not me - how am i supposed to feel?
I’d rather be real and mad and irritated and have a chance to get it out than be fake and act like it doesnt matter. I’m not just going to put a smile on my face and compartmentalize my feelings. If this makes me hard to get along with, so be it. I don’t know how to change the way I am.
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